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47 days and counting...

** Sigh ** As I sit on my facebook page thinking of all of my wonderful friends in McCall. How I miss the days of waking up and saying I think I am going to take a drive and visit one of my friends today. I can see all of your faces in my mind, and when I think of home this is where I think of. Although empty my house on McGinnis is still my home.

The current situation of my life is as follows:

At the beginning of March I went to visit Monterey. This visit was a wonderful two weeks and the weather was amazing. Usually the weather here is cold and overcast. Considering the marine layer. Belle got to spend her first day at the beach. And I got to visit with some old friends.

After those two weeks ended I visited my wonderful sister Brooke and I instantly fell in love with my niece Jaylinn. Spending so many years away from my family has been very hard on me. I feel detached from them and I feel that they are from me as well. I just don't think they know, me. And to be in this situation makes me feel sad.

Belle and I are currently in Detroit, MI helping out my Mom as she gets better from her recent surgery. Although I don't do things like Mom would, I am trying to do my best! I recently found out that my parents will be stationed in Maryland.

So I have a few choices in life that I can only choose for myself. I have a lot of soul searching in the meantime to make my final decision but I have a feeling tonight I will get the answer I have been waiting for. And although McCall is not a card I currently have in my hand at this moment it is one I am hoping to draw in the near future.

Belle Annalise

Looking back on this past 6 months they have been a whirlwind. I am not sure what I ever did before you were born. The smiles and laughs you give are much more worth the pain and tears. You have taught me to be patient and kind, even when I feel like screaming and pulling my hair out. I realize that our journey has just begun together and that you have way more to teach me in life.

Alice

I give myself very good advice. But I very seldom follow it. That explains the trouble that I'm always in. Be patient is very good advice, but the waiting makes me curious. And I'd love the change, should something strange begin. Well, I went along my merry way, and I never stopped to reason. I should have known there'd be a price to pay, some day. Some day. I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it. Will I ever learn to do the things I should? Should I ever learn to do the things I should